No longer new to the lifestyle but still learnig as I go. From what I have experienced so far I can most definately confirm that I am a bratty toppy bottom sadistic SAM switch. I do have a dominant side but I look at it this way; domming is HARD work and I am just too lazy of a person to do that the majority of the time. And its so nice being restrained and beaten and "forced". But know this I am the time of person when pushed I will push back and HARD! So it's best not to test my boundaries.
I have discovered that I am a wee bit of a painslut and well very much a greedy masochist. However since I have always been hypersensitive and a woose when it comes to pain, I need build up! But once my skin has been built up and continues to be played with I can take lots and for long periods of time. I also thoroughly enjoy sub space and strive to go there as much as possible. Ok, ok, ok, I really love certain types of pain and get saddened when I need it to end because I can't take it anymore. I'm a big fan of thuddy but not stingy, I can do stingy but its best if its after I've been built up with thuddy first.
I can be very mouthy and bratty, and well have been known to top from the bottom; which is not my fault, it's the dom's fault. If he were being more forceful I wouldn't have to top from the bottom, now would I? Hmmm this could also be the "princess" in me coming out and that you all should know that I am always right, even when I am wrong; I'm RIGHT.
Oh, alright, I am a BRAT! :D
I have been told that I am very picky. I'm not picky, I'm particular, there is a difference.
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My Ideal Person:
I am NOT looking for someone who is 50+ yrs old, yes I do have age issues. I have no problems being friends with those that are older but please realise I will not be playing with you. I really want that fairytale dream relationship, seeking my other half. I just want to use the dungeon in the fairytale castle, ya know? I am interested in someone who can accept that I can be a very dominant person outside of the lifestyle and that I will never do a complete 180 while in play. Even though I want to be controlled and forced I do have control issues and I need my play partner to understand and accept that. I also have a low tolerance for pain, and as much as I enjoy some pain; I do not enjoy all pain, and hopefully will be able to find someone who will help increase my tolerance for it gradually while at the same time respecting my boundaries. It would be nice to find someone who would like to switch roles from time to time, since I am both a masochist AND a sadist. When I have my sadist hat on I thoroughly enjoy tormenting and inflicting pain as well as mind fucks. What it comes down to is that what I want done to me I do while domming/topping. Besides a little payback is always fun.
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